Denver Train and Bus Riding
4/20/2007
11:07
‘F’ to Lincoln, outbound

A mix of open space + big office buildings…
new developments. Quite far south of downtown.
New center emerging. Blocky buildings.
Pine trees mixed w/deciduous trees.
Overview of suburbs
Lots of stations, more than I’d of thought.
Still going along freeway.

No one can persuade me it wont’ be a disaster.
It becomes the axis I revolve around.
All else seems less real, dimmer.
No one else (or very few)
even have an inkling.
Feel alone, almost.
The scale becomes apparent as I
ride all around the enormous sprawl.
I see the scale of what we are up against.
Meanwhile everything seems just fine.

End of F line: Right by freeway.
Construction nearby.
Big open space with office buildings
Got off train, sitting in sunshine.
Waiting to reboard. Roar of freeway
traffic below. Smell fumes, burning fossil fuel.

Board ‘F’ train at 11:28, waiting
Will go inbound from Lincoln Station.
End of line.
It will take 45 minutes to return
Departure 11:35

Sitting, waiting, contruction on left, freeway on right
parking deck on left
Complicated.
Mall.

Really near Littleton / Columbine area.
8 years ago TODAY: The Columbine shootings.
Destined to be repeated over + over again…even more.
Flags at half mast this week.

Thai chain restaurant.
Endless office buildings + chains
This country is ruined.
Others won’t see it that way, however.
That is just my story about the whole thing.
Trapped inside a dying body. Aren’t we all?
I could be totally wrong but that is my hunch.

I’m going to have to totally work my ass off. Way behind.

11:47
Northbound F train to 18th + California

Concrete corridor.
Long passages of freeway.

Momentary lapse.

All this stuff I am seeing is new.
I feel a sense of defeat…but it is a sort of release,
a release from ambitions + expectations about the future.
It is somewhat liberating. Hard to plan future commitments.

Mother + child eating candy, mother arguing w/her toddler.
Some sort of factory.
Houses poke above concrete wall

If you thought there was no future,
what would you do?
If the world were to end tomorrow,
what would you do today?

The enormity of it all. The scale is beyond comprehension

Trying to select sunglasses…the selection is totally overwhelming
Twice I’ve selected, but still unsatisfied. Will return this
second pair + try again. Too many different types…
and each type represents a type of person.
Not sure which one is right for me.
As if this is what really matters.
(frustration, a sense that I am caught in something meaningless,
but feel obligated to participate in)